Coffee: Shot One


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I thought I would give my readers a chance to get to know me better. Not just as a blogger or a reader but as a person. I know that we are all people out there and so I want to try to share a little bit every so often. I will write as if I was talking to you in a coffee shop hence the title Coffee. Shot One is like the shots that they put in coffee except it will be each attempt that I sit down and write to you, my reader. 

If we went out for coffee I would tell you that I am already missing school. I had to drop out for a term possibly two because it is too expensive to attend right now. I miss having the classwork and having something to keep me busy. I felt like I was wokring towards a goal and now it is not there. Some people may think that if i dropped out that I will never go back however they would be wrong because finishing school and getting a degree is important to me. I want to have the learning experience and I also want to improve my writing.

If we went out for coffee I would tell you that I have a boyfriend. We have definitely had some up and downs but he is pretty amazing. I am thankful to have him in my life. I can't say that our relationship is the easiest because I know that my parents don't approve at all but he is a really great guy and he makes me happy. We met at work or when we did work together but we knew each other for about a year before we started actually dating and by that point we worked in diffferent departments. I feel pretty lucky to have him in my life though. 

If we went out for coffee I would tell you that right now I don't have a job and it is driving me crazy. I have been unemployed for a month now and I am getting sick of it. I basically apply to jobs all day long and go to interviews but no one has hired me yet. Sometimes I feel like giving up hope, but I know that there is something better out there for me. I just need to find it. I have some good leads on jobs so I am hoping someone will want to hire me soon. I really am going crazy not working. I don't like it at all. 

If we went out for coffee I would tell you that I am trying to write a new adult novel. This is my first attempt at the new adult genre, but I am pretty excited to see what happens. I have a great idea in my head and I want to see it on paper so this is what I am working on right now. I think good things can come out of the possibly of me writing this story down. My hope is to see it in print some day, at least in digital print. 

If we went out for coffee I would tell you that I feel replaced. I feel replaced by my friends. Most of my friends were from my last job and so I don't see them everyday anymore. I figured they would want to keep in touch with me more than they are. I've been trying to keep in touch with them but it isn't working out at all because no one seems to respond back to me. I miss them so much. I wish things could go back to how they were but I am not totally sure that is possible. Besides I can see that I am slowly getting replaced by someone else. Guess it was good while it lasted. I am told that it is my fault that I feel this way. I don't feel lie being disappointed and sad is going to ruin my life or anything. I feel like I am trying and it just doesn't work. You can only be ignored so much before it starts to take its toll on you. 

If we went out for coffee I would tell you that being a grown up is hard. Life was so much easier being a kid. Responsibilities were easier. Bills drain your bank account especially when you aren't working and you find that you can't always buy what you want either. In reality being a grown up sucks. You definitley don't have the freedom that you wish you had or that you thought you would get as a kid because you find out that everything costs money. 

If we went out for coffee I would tell you that I am scared. Scared of my future and what it might entail. I feel like all the plans I had for my future aren't going to happen now. Life is starting to hit a low point for me and I'm not used to this. I am used to having a plan and having everything together. Right now I feel like I can't even make plans because I don't know where I am going to be or what I will end up doing. For all I know I could end up in a ditch next week broke with no place to live. Now that is going to the extreme however that is how I feel sometimes.

If we went out for coffee I would tell you that I feel betrayed by people. I feel backstabbed and sad. I am trying to work out all of my feelings and I know people are worried about me, but I just need time. I need time to get over everything and to be okay will all of it. I need time to move on. 

That is what I would tell you if we went out to coffee. What would you tell me? I hope you have a great one until next time. 


2 comments

  1. First of all *hug!*
    If we were having coffee I would tell you that I understand what it is like to be scared about your future and what it might bring. Life is throwing you for a loop but you'll come out stronger and more stand fast than you already were.

    If we were having coffee I'd tell you that you should take all the time you need, because you deserve like any other to get the time you need to figure it all out. Feelings need to be sorted out in order for you to move on.

    If we were having coffee I'd let you know that although I can't make all your troubles go away I'm here if you need someone to listen.

    Massive hug!
    x Iris

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  2. Iris!!! I have to say that you are one of the best blog people I have ever met! I wish we really could have coffee. I may take you up on needing someone to listen.

    ((hugs))

    Ali

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